The wonderful moon gazing hare, looking at Hartleys swing and personal star.
A very lucky little boy xxxxxx

Beautiful Books for Hartley Robert

These two books have been bought for Hartley, in his memory by two of my lovely friends. They are very appt and mean so much to James and I. It has been a very difficult week this week, I didn't know how much it would affect me but Hartley, although it wasn't confirmed, was meant to arrive tomorrow by elective csection. I was very angry at the beginning of the week but now feel slightly calmer. Part of the rollercoaster of it. I've found myself thinking I can't face people, haven't got the energy to cry again? People who don't know me well, people in shops who saw me grow but don't know asking what i had? That's a huge fear.........I can understand why ladies who've experienced this lock themselves away and then it gets bigger and more daunting.
I have to make myself i know........................

Stunning sunset as we came home xxx

There seemed to be a wonderful sunset across the whole country on the day of Hartleys funeral.

A lovely celebration of Hartley's tiny life xxx

The smiles, laughter & tears that we had that day brought us all as a family closer together. Such a shame Hartley isn't here to lap up the oodles of love that is everywhere but it does seem it's natures cruel way. He is up there, up to mischief with his Grandad Razzer( My Dad), Aboo, (clive), my gorgeous little granny who will be tutting as we speak, My grandad who will be secretly smiling when granny looks away...........and of course the naughty poodles and boxers that James and i grew up with. xxxx